Breakdowns On Campus: Students On The Edge


Breakdowns On Campus: Students On The Edge

Today’s Friday.I look like shit, I feel like shit,
I’ve had a shit week.
This module is set out
so bloody stupid!
Say hello.So we’re just chilling in the rain.CAT MEOWSI know. Are you stressed as well?I feel like I’m in, like,
uncharted territory at the moment.
You know, I’ve never had to deal
with self harm before.
I’ve never had to deal withgenuinely planning to end my life.For now, it’s just
keeping myself safe.
And unfortunately,
university kind of has to…
..take a bit of a back seat.You know, I…I could finish my course now but I
might not be around for graduation.
I’ve got deadlines.
I’ve got a presentation next week.
It’s just like, all too much.Like today I was struggling
so much when I was watching
people’s presentations, because
they were so good, like,
I just couldn’t focus and my brain
was just not allowing me to process.
Like, and I’ve got an exam
coming up. Do not do well in exams.
Is any of this going in?Ken. Is any of this going in?I can’t… It’s just not…I’m having a meltdown.I’m very positive today,
which is not, not like me, so…
So, I’m walking to work.I’m hella fucking depressed
right now, like,
I could actually put
someone’s head through a wall.
Now I’ve got to go and sit at
a fucking desk for four hours.
I’m just… Fucking hell!There’s someone behind me
so I look like a fucking moron,
walking around with my phone out,someone else, they’re going to look
at me like I’m fucking crazy.
So, just quickly, I’m really,
really happy because I just got
another first on my uni assignment,so I’m really proud of myself
because it’s a lot of hard work
and it’s put me in a really
good mood while I’m at work.
Makes me more positive to do,
to do the other four assignments
that I’ve got to do
in the next three weeks.
This is really hard to film this,but I promised I’d be honest.I’m just so fucking broke
and I don’t know what to do.
I’m really fucking hurting.I’m, like, so alone.No-one listens, like,no-one checks up on me.No-one tries, like…I’ve literally been, there’s so many
signs about how bad I’ve been
struggling and no-one’s done shit.I just… I just don’t…I just hate this.I just don’t want to…I wish I could just fuck off
for a while and just…
..just not do it, just not…You know,
I’m glad my overdose failed.
I’m glad I’m here,
I’m alive, I’m well.
I’m glad I’m getting help
from professionals, my family,
my friends and everyone around me.SHE KNOCKSDOOR OPENSHello!You all right?
You all right? I’m good, thanks.
Did you get the bus?
I’ve missed you.
Of course I got the bus!Hi.Hello, Amy.You all right?Yeah, you?I missed you.Did you?Oh, get your fucking freezing hands
off me!
Those cakes look nice.We’ve got dinner first.Oh, Prosecco.People always say, like, “Oh,
it’s the best years of your life,
“you’ll have so much fun,
party, party, party”, but then
they don’t mention,
like, the social pressure,
there’s the pressure to
join teams and be part of things
and you’ve got, like,
your work pressure
and then your living arrangements
and then your student loan and
balancing money and finding a job
and it’s just like, so difficult.
Sometimes you just need to
let someone else care for you,
you know, instead of struggling.That’s not funny.That’s very grim.Like, this has been
just the most intense year,
but amazing year, and I’ve learned
so much about others, myself,
and especially about
reaching out for help when I need it
and knowing when I need to get help,but also being strong for myself.I’m so excited for next year,
like, I can’t wait.
I’m going to be moving to a house,
like, it’s going to be amazing.
I love my course, I love my friends,
I love the area, I just…
I can’t wait.I got a letter
through the post today
confirming my extension
for my degree.
Everyone else is obviously
getting their results.
I don’t really know how
I’m going to deal with everyone,
like, graduating,
and wearing their gowns
and everyone’s getting fitted
for those hat things, and…
SHE GROANSIt’s a shame.All those wild times that
I bounded my dissertation! Oh…
Those were the good old days, eh?I’m getting support.I’m glad that
I still persevered with…
..believing that I was worth help.I was on my way to
a hospital appointment
and I found a man
lying on the floor.
It basically turned out that
he’d tried to commit suicide.
It was hard to see
the amount of pain that he was in
because I’ve been there.It was a shock and it was hard.I told him that he needs to
let people help him.
It made me think that
his life was valuable
and that
that wasn’t the answer for him,
and it made me realise that
it wasn’t the answer for me either,
and I’m glad that I’m still here.It’s so important to talk to people.Because help is out there.

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23 thoughts on “Breakdowns On Campus: Students On The Edge”

  1. Friday Night Live says:

    This Uni wow sounds so depressing honestly no worth it at all life about happiness period no of this matters your life lot more valuable

  2. Lou says:

    This petrifies me. I go into college in less than a year and it’s scary watching this.

  3. OG Deadeye says:

    As someone who suffers from severe depression here’s advice for any future students…..STAY AWAY FROM BOURNEMOUTH UNIVERSITY! Never met such uncaring scumbags in my life, even with medical evidence they wouldn’t let me resit one unit I had missed due to my illness, wanted me to wait a whole year and pay an extra £3000 just to retake one test. This is the kind of support you receive from evil money grubbing businesses like universities (which is all they really are these days thanks to the Torys)

  4. Gina Star says:

    I relate to amy so much, some days I’m really good and Some days, I’m really bad to the point, I just found myself crying in the middle of the night, walking on campus and basically a lot . It hurts even more knowing that I’m trying and I have no one to talk to talk.
    And like Lauren, sometimes I wish I could just stop work and school altogether

  5. Sara S Ahmad says:

    Y tf is de caption in de middle of de vid/ their face(?)😑

  6. Ndeshi Hampson says:

    Mental health is very important and I applaud bbc for documenting the struggles that these people go through however, I feel like this video was made to feel pity not to appreciate how strong these people actually are that’s the only thing that really aggravated me. I have severe OCD and dyslexia but I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE WANT TO PITY ME! See that I’m strong and very intelligent to come out on top despite all my issues I’m still at uni that should be celebrated as an achievement! Sorry I just hate to be made as a victim to others.

  7. Raymond says:

    This is why instagram is created, to hide chronic depression with lots of makeup, comment and likes. 😀

  8. Bilbo Baggins says:

    when I was at Lancaster University between 2003 and 2006 you didn’t even know what depression was. All you knew was you felt awful and didn’t know how to cope. The counsellors were sarcastic and there was very little or no support which led me to drop out of my course. This was the best thing! I’m now a successful violin teacher living in London and am back studying for a BA degree.

  9. ffi1001 says:

    I suffered terribly and wasn’t able to complete my degree. This was 15 years ago. I didn’t think anyone went through this too. I thought I was the only one. Felt like a failure since then.

  10. Black Owl says:

    I think it's the time to change this stupid system

  11. paige Ellie says:

    Thank you for including me in this – I really enjoyed helping contributing

  12. Jason Pickersgill says:

    210% increase in mental health in 5 years! The stress of degrees have exacerbated these individuals mental health that was there before they started uni.
    Surely they knew this?
    I hope they find peace in their lives

  13. Narfadli Yanto says:

    the workplace expectations got higher so universities give their students these horrible workload. realistically, in my place (i study in design school and i have no close friends in my major so i work alone most of the time), the students help each other or ask someone to help with their assignments

  14. Prime Minister says:

    DICK LUSTING COCK DEPRIVED landwhale shebeasts depressed out of their pussies.

  15. C Klan says:

    I've travelled six hours on a bus and booked into a hotel and I've just realised my interview tomorrow at 9 am is taking place 20 minutes from my house. Things are finally coming up for old Gil

  16. a l says:

    Fix mental healthhh pls. World health….

  17. a l says:

    Thinking about it makes it worst?

  18. Judy Hwang says:

    A university degree is NEVER worth getting a mental illness or making your mental illness worse than it already is. PERIOD. Quitting university was the best decision I ever made for my mental health and well-being.

  19. NP P says:

    Yeah just ignore males then. We don't matter

  20. Rossana Evaristo says:

    As an international student I can vouch all that stress is real and it gets u. Now imagine all of that plus: being thousands of miles away from home, English not being your first language, struggling to make friends and many others more stuff. Bare in mind as well that most of have a COMPLETE different education background so coming here and adjusting to the education system is a whooole another struggle 😂.
    Honestly you guys are so fortunate to be home you have no idea.

  21. Matthew New says:

    Many of you comment, "just drop out of University", but that's not a luxury many international students can afford. International students pay tens of thousands of dollars per semester to study at those Universities. Their parents sold their house and invested everything they had to their child's future. They can't just suddenly quit.

  22. Ayman Damer says:

    God bless you Lauren and love you from the bottom of my heart
    I understand you but you should be stronger and you are strong
    Love you so much ❤️

  23. Ayman Damer says:

    God bless you Amy ❤️

  24. Ayman Damer says:

    I love myself and I love life and I always try to be strong and to ignore negative thoughts

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